Reality stinks, especially after a fabulous three day weekend.
I didn’t work a bit. My sister came up and we went out for yummy meals and shopped and battled my husband at mini golf and games, and then when she left I still had yesterday off with the house to myself to sleep in and get random things done and visit with friends… The best weekends make for the hardest mornings back.
It’s a big week in our home and thinking about it makes me a little nauseous. After two weeks of watching people’s desks slowly empty out at work, I know our department is next. It could come at any moment and they give almost no warning. And on the other side, my husband has his first big case on Thursday. This case will basically set the tone for the rest of our year – where we can live, and how bad the aforementioned layoff possibility might be…
I really want to bury my head in the sand and not think about it at all. Things have been going so well, the fact that we’re essentially on the brink of make it or break is something I just don’t want to consider. I try to walk the fine line between optimism and getting your hopes up, but I’m never very good at it.
So, instead I’m focusing on the fact I ate tons of junk all week and still managed not to undo all of my hard work to this point
And that I have a wonderful husband who offered to drive me in to work so I don’t have to deal with the 40 below wind chills this morning. (Moving to a warmer climate is becoming a much more enticing plan B to our lives)
And that I have such a fantastic little sister that I miss her even when she was just here.
Bring on the week…
Book #2: Girls In White Dresses by Jennifer Close
Picture: Barnes & Noble
I love a book that makes me laugh out loud. This one did, over and over again.
I’ve been wanting to read this book for a while, but I felt odd about it. I’m not the girl that this book was written for. I’m the antithesis of that girl – something that’s very obvious to me some days. I was the first one to get married. I had one year of post-college, normal “20s” life, then I started law school, met my husband and was engaged before summer.
But, contrary to my expectations, I still found this book relatable. You can hear some of these conversations coming out of your friends’ mouths, or your own. It’s fresh and engaging, ignoring the cliches of “waiting for Mr. Right” and instead illustrating what real life looks like while you are looking for it.
Except… When I brought the book up to some girlfriends at coffee on Sunday, the only one not married or engaged replied “The book about the girls having a midlife crisis because they’re single? It was ok.”
That was NOT what I took away from this book AT ALL. Which makes me wonder if I got it at all. Is that what I was supposed to see? Is that what it means to someone going through it?
In some ways, I feel like I missed out on those years, and wish I would have had a few more of them. In other ways, I’m glad I never had to. I love being married. I love feeling settled and always having a safe place to land.
Either way, Girls In White Dresses was a quick, fun read that I loved. A+
This was my fortune at the end of our anniversary dinner last night, and it made me laugh. Yup, this relationship is permanent. He’s stuck with me now!
And it was an unexpected relationship. I turned him down time and time again. He was not the kind of guy I pictured myself with.
But he was the kind of guy I needed, and eventually, despite me getting in my own way, I fell in love with him.
I think it’s a good reminder today to embrace the twists and turns life throws at you. I’m definitely not good at that. I have an idea of how life should go and I tend to dismiss things that don’t fit that idea. But sometimes the best things in life, you’d never have seen coming.
Here’s to something fabulous and unexpected coming around today!