Today I was officially sworn in, and I am now licensed to practice law. I am finally a lawyer.
The speeches, the small talk, and really most of the morning was spent rehashing the things we all had to overcome to get to this day. But that’s not where my heart has been today. Yes, these last three years have been the most challenging I’ve faced, but I’ve spent enough words on that before. Today, I’m just feeling grateful. Hidden among all of the long days, frustrations and disappointments were uncountable blessings.
I met my husband, who loves me even when I’m ridiculous or difficult, and he tells me that, every single day. He takes care of me, he laughs at my silly antics, and lets me get away with things like blaring the new Taylor Swift CD in his car because waiting to get home from Target is just not my style. He challenges me to be a better person every day just by being who he is. He’s my rock, and my safe place to land.
I shared this experience with some pretty amazing people. Since our first day of class, I have conquered this crazy challenge with someone I should have met in college (we actually had mutual friends) but never did. We kept each other sane… most of the time. I watched two of the nicest people I’ve ever met fall in love and now they’re getting married. There were study sessions that turned into parties, and dinners that turned into late nights. And there is a kinship between those of us who have struggled together the whole way, that I will miss.
And I have friends who didn’t take this challenge on with me, but who stuck by me through it. They’ve been neglected. I’ve been a crappy friend to them who hasn’t had time to see them often, and who has been preoccupied with something they didn’t really want to hear about. I’ve forgotten birthdays. I’ve missed too many things. They’re still around. I’m that lucky.
I have a family that loves me, that supports me, and that is proud of me. They’ve been far away, and I’ve seen less of them, but they’re there. When push comes to shove they are going to do everything they can to help us. I don’t think I ever understood how much that means before.
My husband and I have lived in a beautiful apartment that has made this entire journey more comfortable. We’ve been able to live a non-ramon noodle existence while we were both full time students. We had adventures traveling through Europe and the U.S. together.
But perhaps my greatest adventure has been the one I’ve had with God. He called me here. I often didn’t understand why, but He did. I learned the weaknesses of my faith. I learned where I wander when I don’t have a community behind me. I learned a lot about trust. I thought I trusted Him before I came here. Now I know what trust really means. I also learned a lot about grace. He has met me where I fell every step of the way.
Today was the last day in a long journey. It’s a perfect day to be grateful.