I couldn’t bring myself to post last week – I was too angry. I was following all of the rules and moving backwards, after only a few weeks, and I was too frustrated to talk about it. When this happened last time, as it always seems to, I gave up.
But I didn’t this time. Gaining weight while following the rules wasn’t going to break my stride, because I did something different this time. I didn’t play all of my cards at once.
Normally, I decide I’m going to give up everything that’s bad for me, start eating everything good, and work out every day – then I crash and burn. This time, I didn’t. This time I did one thing at a time. First: I could eat whatever I wanted as long as it fit in the points plan. That had me incorporating some small, healthier changes into my meals.
The setback was momentum to get me to the gym, adding one more thing. Which I hate, no question about it, but which I suffered through. And I’ll admit, seeing the numbers drop makes getting myself to keep going a little bit easier.
My big hangup, the thing I know I need to change (aside from my hatred of workout machines) is my overwhelming need for caffeine, which I get from lattes and Coke which are incredibly non-nutricious. I want to not need it. I have made it to that point before, but at the moment I’m am horribly dependent on it. And still permanently exhausted.
Yes, I would love 8 hours of sleep a night. But I’m already going to bed at 9:15pm. I just can’t go to sleep any earlier. I need more hours in my day than that!
I know before dawn on this Monday morning I can’t be the only person running on fumes. Where do you guys get your energy from? What have you found to get you through the day without setting back your day?
Book #2: Girls In White Dresses by Jennifer Close
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I love a book that makes me laugh out loud. This one did, over and over again.
I’ve been wanting to read this book for a while, but I felt odd about it. I’m not the girl that this book was written for. I’m the antithesis of that girl – something that’s very obvious to me some days. I was the first one to get married. I had one year of post-college, normal “20s” life, then I started law school, met my husband and was engaged before summer.
But, contrary to my expectations, I still found this book relatable. You can hear some of these conversations coming out of your friends’ mouths, or your own. It’s fresh and engaging, ignoring the cliches of “waiting for Mr. Right” and instead illustrating what real life looks like while you are looking for it.
Except… When I brought the book up to some girlfriends at coffee on Sunday, the only one not married or engaged replied “The book about the girls having a midlife crisis because they’re single? It was ok.”
That was NOT what I took away from this book AT ALL. Which makes me wonder if I got it at all. Is that what I was supposed to see? Is that what it means to someone going through it?
In some ways, I feel like I missed out on those years, and wish I would have had a few more of them. In other ways, I’m glad I never had to. I love being married. I love feeling settled and always having a safe place to land.
Either way, Girls In White Dresses was a quick, fun read that I loved. A+
Book #1: Case Histories by Kate Atkinson
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For my first book of the year I decided to pick something off my shelf that’s been waiting there for a while, simultaneously kicking off my “50 books in 2013″ resolution and maintaining my crazy promise to try reading the books I already own.
It was… interesting.
It starts with four different families stories, or “case histories,” and slowly brings term together into one cohesive mystery. I stress slowly, and with incredibly obvious calculation and a writing style that made me feel like I had attention defect disorder.
I almost didn’t make it through, but I was determined not to give up.
It had great reviews, it was a mystery, it was British… it seemed like a good idea at the time I bought it. Whenever that was.
But I trudged through, for a moment thought I was interested, and then ended disappointed.
1 down, 49 to go…